{"id":390,"date":"2006-01-03T20:08:04","date_gmt":"2006-01-04T00:08:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/?p=388"},"modified":"2006-01-03T20:08:04","modified_gmt":"2006-01-04T00:08:04","slug":"grounds-for-dismissal","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/2006\/01\/03\/grounds-for-dismissal\/","title":{"rendered":"Grounds for dismissal"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>So today is my first work day of the first work week of 2006.<br \/>\nInteresting.  I&#8217;m tickled pink.  Honestly I am.<\/p>\n<p>My brother is visiting.  I&#8217;ve had a great time with him being here.  We<br \/>\njoke around a lot.  It is nice to have someone else in the house for me.<br \/>\nOur house is silent usually during the weekend or when I get off of<br \/>\nwork, unless Mary and I decide to entertain each other with our witty<br \/>\nbanter and flirtatious attitudes. <\/p>\n<p>Interestingly enough, for some reason Mary and I have fought more now<br \/>\nsince Trey came to visit then ever before.  Some of it could be<br \/>\nattributed to me starting a new job and whatever stress there is to be<br \/>\nbrought about due to this, but some could also say we have spent a lot<br \/>\nof time together which always inevitably leads to friction.  (NOT to leave<br \/>\nout that the final reason such things occur, could be left up to the fact that<br \/>\nShe is in a bad mood herself.  She has snapped a lot at me lately.  And she<br \/>\nnags&#8230;. whoah does she nag.  But this is neither here nor there.)<\/p>\n<p>It was not always this way.<\/p>\n<p>Mary went home for the holidays and I was somewhat alone for 5 whole<br \/>\ndays in our apartment.  (alone meaning primarily me and kitties, except<br \/>\nfor the oh so brief visit of stryx which was enjoyable for both parties<br \/>\ninvolved I believe)  When I walked off the plane in Baton Rouge, Mary<br \/>\nand Trey were there to greet me.  I was nauseous due to plane ride and<br \/>\nlack of food.  Mary was very excited to see me, much like I was to see<br \/>\nher.<\/p>\n<p>Life is what happens to you while you make plans.<\/p>\n<p>Upon reaching &#8220;home&#8221; which is a luxurious house with three bedrooms, two<br \/>\nbathrooms (one of which includes a Jacuzzi bathtub), one four person<br \/>\nJacuzzi, a living room\/kitchen combination that is as long as ours in NY<br \/>\nbut this one is about 8-9 feet wider, and a dining room. <\/p>\n<p>My parents were not comfortable in it, I believe.  For very<br \/>\nblatant reasons.  They don&#8217;t own it, or even pay rent for it.  It is<br \/>\n&#8220;someone&#8221; else&#8217;s.  This makes them feel uncomfortable.  It would make me<br \/>\nfeel uncomfortable I believe. <\/p>\n<p>Mary and I on the other hand were guests, and as guests were accustomed<br \/>\nto our surroundings not being ours.  Something about second-tier<br \/>\nloanship.  The pre-medicated concerns due to true ownership fades away.<\/p>\n<p>We used the Jacuzzi\/hot tub throughout our whole stay.  It was enjoyable<br \/>\nand made us feel like we could do this one day, which brought up<br \/>\nquestions.  Difficult questions.  About the future.  AKA Stress<br \/>\ninjectors into a relationship. <\/p>\n<p>Christmas went without hitch.  I discussed present giving practices.<br \/>\nMom, Dad, and I didn&#8217;t hang out nearly as much as I&#8217;d have liked.  I<br \/>\nalways seemed to be doing something.  It was annoying.  We were always<br \/>\naround, we just didn&#8217;t talk much.  I wanted to, but they were always<br \/>\nconcerned with making us comfortable and showing us various things. <\/p>\n<p>Time was short on all sides.  Pre-Christmas activities involved present<br \/>\npurchasing and post-Christmas activities involved experiencing the<br \/>\n&#8220;hurricane&#8221; for the first time.  Of course I wasn&#8217;t pushy.  In fact to<br \/>\nbe honest I did dread the conversation because I wasn&#8217;t sure how I could<br \/>\nhelp, or even if I could help.  I need to go down there without Mary I<br \/>\nbelieve.  The time we did in fact spend at the house attempting to fix<br \/>\nthings, wasn&#8217;t enough for me.  I think Mary was bored and I think my<br \/>\nfamily wasn&#8217;t interested in allowing me to work on the house either.  I<br \/>\ndon&#8217;t blame them.  While at the house, there was a emotional funk in the<br \/>\nair, that is all I can do to describe it.  It was like you could taste<br \/>\nthe memories of the past flailing to be brought into the light, but yet<br \/>\nyour conscious mind rejects the past as parts of something that never<br \/>\nwill be. <\/p>\n<p>They have made so much progress in re-building the place so that they<br \/>\ncan move in.  They still have a lot of work to do, and I want to help<br \/>\nmore.<\/p>\n<p>We will see.  Life will be as it once was, it is just too soon.  As fast<br \/>\nas life &#8220;seems&#8221; to be moving, I&#8217;m at a stage in which I wish it would<br \/>\nmove faster.  I swore I&#8217;d never want to &#8220;wish away my life&#8221;.  But this<br \/>\nis one of those moments in which all preconceived rule sets are broken.<\/p>\n<p>They will be repaired tomorrow.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>So today is my first work day of the first work week of 2006. Interesting. I&#8217;m tickled pink. Honestly I am. My brother is visiting. I&#8217;ve had a great time with him being here. We joke around a lot. It is nice to have someone else in the house for me. Our house is silent [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-390","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-entries"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/390","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=390"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/390\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=390"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=390"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=390"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}