{"id":67,"date":"2004-12-03T21:10:45","date_gmt":"2004-12-04T01:10:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp\/?p=63"},"modified":"2004-12-03T21:10:45","modified_gmt":"2004-12-04T01:10:45","slug":"what-do-you-think-compels-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/2004\/12\/03\/what-do-you-think-compels-me\/","title":{"rendered":"what do you think compels me.."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I was about to step outside for a while.. go for a walk.. when i sat at the computer and looked through my bookmarks&#8230; i saw it there&#8230; it has been a while.. i&#8217;m not sure why i bookmarked the page.  <\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m facinated with suicide.  (Do not worry mom and dad if you are reading this it isn&#8217;t that i&#8217;m concerned for myself.)  I&#8217;m fascinated with people who go that next step.  What pushes them overboard?  What exactly happens to make an individual take that step from contemplation to action?<\/p>\n<p>I remember reading an essay, and i&#8217;m positive i&#8217;ve told you about this in passing.  The essay is called Sysiphous.  It was written by Albert Camus.  He is one of my favorite philisophical writers.  He argues that with the &#8216;death&#8217; of God, which is without question the only explanation about life in this world, the most important question to answer is &#8220;Why not comit suicide?&#8221;  I think it is drastic but it has relevance.<\/p>\n<p>Anyway, so as i was mindlessly clicking on my links i run across the link to Michael Buonauro&#8217;s blog.  It is an eery creation.  It is the last words he has shared with the world about his life.  I leave this link sprawled across the textbase with hope you will take a moment and see his writing.  <\/p>\n<p>I warn you, this might disturb you&#8230;<br \/>\nhttp:\/\/www.livejournal.com\/users\/mbuonauro\/<\/p>\n<p>He was very talented, but that doesn&#8217;t matter now.  <\/p>\n<p>ok i&#8217;m off for my walk&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I was about to step outside for a while.. go for a walk.. when i sat at the computer and looked through my bookmarks&#8230; i saw it there&#8230; it has been a while.. i&#8217;m not sure why i bookmarked the page. I&#8217;m facinated with suicide. (Do not worry mom and dad if you are reading [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-67","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-entries"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/67","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=67"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/67\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=67"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=67"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/happypoet.com\/arglor\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=67"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}