Month: March 2006

We sit and wonder when will we feel relaxed. We are able to forget for a while when we are working. But life is getting too difficult. We have discussed and discussed what we should do. Then we find that life does not want us to do that. I am so tired of worrying about what I will do next month or the next week.
Life used to be more peaceful. I really did not appreciate it. I can remember complaining and thinking I had a good reason. In comparison to today, I was so wrong.

The only thing is that it is not just me. Everyone in our area seems to be hanging on and wondering what will happen next. Hurricane Season has not even started yet and yet we live with the anxiety of what will happen next. My friends keep getting hit with somethihg different in their life. If I thought it would solve the problem instead of just make me feel worse physically. I would get drunk.

Back in January I wrote “I am in a state of depression”. It didn’t go away. I even thought that if I put it down in writing that it might ease. Well, it just went into hiding. But it has come back in full force and I am so angry.

I am so TIRED of a government who thinks it is more important to build a 700 mile fence to keep people out—-instead of a levee to keep it’s citizens safer.

I am TIRED of a government who says. We are going to help you. Then turns around and rewrites what they will cover under flood damage. They give the insurance agencies the okay to say….you can not build there. Despite the fact that your family has lived there for over one hundred years.

I am TIRED of a government who tells you—you must build your house a certain way. You must pay an extremly high price to get permission to build. You must hire someone to build your house. You must pay someone to inspect the house every step of the way. You must pay someone to come tell you how high you must build. And the thought that tomorrow there may be new rules can make you go ballistic.

This is today. I know how I feel now. I hope tomorrow may be a better day.

Picture this…1:30 in the morning, SOUND ASLEEP. Phone rings ….hmmm who could that be. Sleepily you answer the phone…..there is a woman on the other end…
“Why are you calling my boyfriend, Brent’ (words something like that…remember we were sound asleep)
“I don’t know a Brent….I did not call you….” I reply
Woman: “Yes you did. You calll and told Larry that you wanted to talk to Brent the other day.”
“I don’t know Larry..” Steve from the other side of the bed says hang up.
As I am hanging up…
Woman: “I want to know what you are up to with my boyfriend.”
I dutifully hang up.
Thirty minutes later….phone rings. Steve says “Hand the phone to me!”
He proceeds to tell the woman she has the wrong number and she better stop calling. She must say something back…Steve says” No, you don’t understand….it is two o’clock in the morning. DON’T call back.”
The story is told to eldest son…he says.” You should have told the woman…Hey I am 59 years old…I do not want or need a boyfriend.”
Why didn’t I think of that…..well, did I mention I was SOUND asleep.
I think she tried calling me today while I was at work….but she has a private number.
You know, it is hard enough to wake up when you are sleeping and be coherent. But to have an argument with a lunatic is even worse. As if I had time for a boyfriend. Much less the energy.
This woman has serious problems. I hope she leaves me alone. I just will not answer if I get a call from a (no number).