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I did not mention that one of my mentors has cracked. This isn’t completely new. I enjoyed talking to him most because he was a physicist concerned with existential problems. He was unique from the begining because he was also taking a very liberal arts approach to the existential dillemma. In the end his search to answer the question took a dark turn.
I hate the fact that looking back at my past few interactions with him were interactions full of judgement and a lack of concern. I was selfishly motivated. Concerned primarily with my own search and neglecting his all-too obvious calls for assistance. What could i have done?
Now i find i have a distinct desire to get in touch with him to find out his story. So fucking typical, i know. I tend to only get interested in radicals when they actually destroy their lives to make their point heard. I tune my ears and try and listen. So what is his story?
October 16th, 2004 at 5:41 pm
We all wish that we could go back to relive our reactions when the worst happens. You can’t, and anything you do now would be what happens in the present with all the baggage of the past attached. Yes, I did not personally know your professor, but I held a great respect for his ability to motivate students. Because of this, I wish there was something that you could do to assist him. Truthfully, there isn’t, except take what you learned from him that was positive and use it in your daily life. That would be the best way to show respect for him and give him immortality!