and depressed. Man I was hit hard. Long and detailed rundown of my life the last few days and my interpretations follow:
– Go to see Star Wars and ended up being mildly disappointed. Well actually really dissappointed. I had built up going to watch this movie so much due to the large amount of time spent at work at M.I. dreaming of the three day stretch i had coming up.
– Go to see NIN in concert and i was mildly dissappointed. Yet again, really dissappointed. “I wanted something i could not have.” The best part of it all was seeing how much enjoyment Trey got out of the concert. There is a little part to the concert you might not know. Since we staggered in so late, we got split up. The whole concert i spent 15 seats from the people i came with. This was very prophetic. Seeing as the next day i would be so many miles away from them.
– I got to the hotel and the realization that my mom that would deposit a check earlier then anticipated, which meant i would get a 30 dollar non-sufficient funds charge. Not the best news to come down to after a concert.
– After getting lost in houston trying to get to an airport i’ve never even heard of, we finally make it to the airport with plenty of time to get through security. But then it strikes. It being the recognition that i will be saying goodbye to some close friends and a brother that i have always been around and influenced by. Needless to say it wasn’t the best feeling to say goodbye to all of them.
– I get on the plane and suffer through some of the worst airtravel i’ve ever been on.
– Landing in Atlanta i learn that the airplane’s departure has been delayed to to rough weather in New York. 3 hour delay plus the original 1 hour layover meant an insane amount of “me” time in the airport. This allowed me to think over a lot of things. The conclusions of which i will never give to anyone.
– Landing in NY at 9:00 instead of the planned 5:00 set me in an odd mood.
– Thursday i wake up to work on getting everything ready to present, but i can’t seem to get motivated. I’m seriously wiped out. Mary and I work on my resume. Trey reviewed my resume and sent back advice. Congealing all the advice into a consistent resume, i came to the conclusion that i need to start looking for a job.
– We go grocery Shopping. It is a lot of money for a week. I worry. Money is dwindling and job hasn’t been secured.
– Friday my computer is dropped off. I have a sinking feeling as i evaluate the box. It doens’t look good. Opening the box up i see that the stirofoam protecting my case has been torn into pieces. My heart falls to the ground. I do this worried pacing thing i always do when i recognize that something is about to go seriously fucking wrong. I open up my case and all my parts fall onto the ground in a disorganized mess. I feel sick. I call Allied Services and tell them my problem, they lodge the report and say they can’t get back to me until tuesday.
– Saturday trying to get my mind off of the week of depressing events, Mary and I go to central park. It is beautiful. We get lost in Harlem as Mary decides to “explore”. Not the safest of places Harlem. Don’t worry nothing happened, just realized that after all is said and done we should have avoided one of the spots we went through.
– Sunday i spend most of my day occuping my time since we have only one computer right now and it is Mary’s computer. She wants to write. So I do other things. Like Zelda Four Swords. Yes. Its a bad game. I won’t get into how boring the game is. I couldn’t do anything productive because my mind was scatterred.
– Monday we go shopping at the mall and i get a shirt to go to interviews in. I finish my resume and finish a cover letter.
– Tuesday i wake up and begin working again about to send my resume out, when i notice UPS HAS yet to call me. So i call allied services again and stress the exact dilemma i’m facing. Lack of computer and the lack of progress with finding a job due to the lack of my computer. They tell me they are trying their best to expedite the procedure.
– In the background here i failed to mention the fact that I am in need of a new phone number. One difficulty in applying for jobs with a louisiana phone number, is that they don’t want to call you back. I can’t change my phone number because the UPS people have my phone number as my only contact information. Catch 22. Except this is not a duality. I force UPS to update my phone number and run off to cingular to change my phone number. UPS uses Mary’s phone number and i get my new phone number from cingular.
– I call UPS and give them my new phone number and i put my new phone number on the resumes and send them out. I send five resumes to temp agencies. Pleased i begin adding more jobs positions to my database so i can send out my resume to even more. I’m doing the shotgun effect to getting a job. Sending out as many resume’s as possible and hoping someone bites.
– This morning i wake up and finish another resume to send out. I call two more temp agencies and set up an interview appointment with one of them. I call Mr. Kinsella and get the information needed to finish my NAACP resume. It is now ready to send out. In a couple minutes i’ll be done with my ACLU resume and i will send it out. I will also be sending out resume’s to the Lambda group and also to the Innocence Project. Each with tailored Cover Letters.
– I finally get a call from UPS and find out they will be sending an insurrance agent soon.

In all aspects, the view from here and now looks positive. And that is why i wrote this blog entry. I’ve been avoiding the blog, because i had nothing but bad news to share. Now i have good news.

Tonight Mary and I are going to a park to watch Garden State under the stars. It should be nice. It is free to. free is always good.