I just have to push something through the final stages and then i can claim completion for all things christmas related. I’m very excited about the presents i have purchased, and hope they bring happiness to all of you.

As much of you know yesterday was the holiday of my birth… I am now officially 24…

I was in a funk yesterday and i can’t narrow it down to one cause. My parents took me out to eat, trey came by to visit, and i spent all night talking to Mary and wishing she were here. I had wanted to something different to mark the day as special and i guess since that fell through i got depressed. My birthday was much like any other day except i got older. I think it was officially the adult birthday i had been trying to escape all my life. The day where everyone looks around and says so? your a day older? get over yourself. I knew it would happen one day.

My parents were pleased to spend time with me, which was nice. We ate at Bennigans. Trey visited and we talked about a few things.

I will write my nietzsche paper tonight and tomorrow and be done with the whole damn thing. Nothing will be needed. The world will continue. I will finish getting my present for Mary. I will even work on other things necessary.

Next week I will take my finals. I will then go to work. I will then go take my GRE. Finally i will see Mary. This is my plan. This is my goal. I don’t really feel inspired for anything other then that Goal. I will go through the motions. I will continue completeing the necesseties of life.

i’m going to watch spirited away later tonight. That seems like it will be a good movie.

ok i’m done.. I work next week on Tuesday and Wednesday 9-12. Interesting stuff.

I scoff at such a notion… i’m really easy to shop for i think…

Movies:
– The return of the king (special platinum edition)
– Star Wars Trilogy
– waking life
– lost in translation
– the seventh seal
– persona

Game
– Metroid Prime 2 Echoes

Books
– Art of happyness
– Art of War
– Machiavelli’s the prince
– any buddhist text (except idiots guides etc)

Odds and Ends
– Chess sets of interesting origin
– Swords and other beautiful medeival weapons
– love and admiration
– respect
– zen rock garden
– prayer stick (buddhist in origin)

If that isn’t enough i’m sure you can get me anything and i’d love it…

here you go Mom…

I have just borne witness to one of the greatest movies of my time. I just watched finding Neverland. It was beautiful. The acting was absoluetly gorgeous. The script was powerful.

I haven’t had a rush of this much emotion in a long time… i think the last time i felt like this was during “The House of Sand and Fog.” This was different though. I keep wondering why it is i felt such an emotional binding to this movie. I can’t describe it. I don’t remember if i had a strong connection with the disney film of peter pan, perhaps i did and maybe that is why i got so worked up about this film.

THE CHILDREN WERE GENIUS! I was so effected by this movie. I’m simply stunned how good it was.

Wow it is cold outside (shut it Mary, it is so cold i’m using my ratty old paint colored coat i got when i was like 16… i love that old coat… fits like a glove… that is two sizes too small but a glove nonetheless.)…

Today is the great david’s birthday eve… ha HA! Festivities for all.

I haven’t a clue what i’m going to do tomorrow. Mom said she would take me out to eat, and who can pass up a free meal? Other then that i will try and figure out some way of getting myself drunk. I might go to this local bar.. or i might just not get drunk. I don’t know. I want to do something just not sure what.

Might end up working on my paper for Nietzsche. That would be interesting.
Might end up going to walmart and buying something. Nothing says happy birthday like consumerism.
Might end up watching a movie like Finding Neverland. (this will definitly happen either tonight or tomorrow.
Might end up finishing up my christmas shopping.

Christmas is going to be awesome. I’m going to love everything about it. I’ve always enjoyed the holidays. The key to understanding me, is that i want to remain a child for the rest of my life. I see children and recognize their love of life. This makes me want to remain a kid. This isn’t to say i’m childish during the holidays. Holidays involve visiting with family and debating current world views, which is always a blast. I’m fortunate to have family like Trey, Mom, Dad, Michelle, Terry, Elizabeth, John, and Mike that see my positioning arguments against them as attempting to learn. I figure we all have unique existences in this world and i’m curious how we change over time.

Finally i am also fortunate to have Mary. I would gush about her, but you all have met her. She defies definition. Which a philosopher should always look for in a love. Defining something makes it boring.

Oh well..

On a completely different notion. I watched King Arthur last night. It was a really good movie. I was surprised. I think i know why i think it is such a good movie. I really want to play World of Warcraft. This movie reminds me of it during some of the battle scenes. God i want to play WoW.

The acting was pretty good, and the script was definitly an interesting telling of the Arthurian tale.

I read some reviews of it and i agree with them about most of their discussions about the movie, but i don’t weight the premises as much as they do. The running trend is that Gwenevere is too perfectly feminine and too fierce on the battlefield for their tastes. The story is distorted so it must be bad. I wasn’t pleased with Gwenevere’s story but i sure as hell don’t think she ruined the whole movie.

ah well enough.
(more…)

December Third a movie is released called, “I am David”… The day before that point in the future, a momentous occurence will be celebrated because a little child is born and the phrase “I am David” takes on new meaning.

coincidence?… i think not… the world recognizes the beauty and harmony of my existence and decides to shout that existence upon the clouds so all of existence should know…

Back to things past…

Thanksgiving had to be one of the best days of my life. Mary attended the celebrations at my parents house. Michelle and Terry both came over from their respective corners of the world (New Mexico and California respectively). We began by catching up with each other’s past few months. I mentioned i took Nietzsche. We then retired to the den where Trey re-kindled the debate about vegetarianism. It was interesting, and i was with my back against the fence and the cigarette was gently placed in my mouth. Moments ticked as i finally heard the click of the squad’s triggers slide into place.

Who can fend their beliefs against two Staunch vegetarians. Statements were heard, statements were ignored, and statements were misinterpretted. Finally my argument was fully understood i believe, yet i’m not sure it was completly agreed with. I argued three main points.
– Pure Vegetarianism is not healthier then an omnivorous lifestyle.
– Omnivorous lifestyle is compatible with fair and moral treatment of animals.
– America needs a severe lifestyle/health change because the dominence meat plays and also the dominence junk-food plays in our diets is slowly killing us from the inside out.

The first two statements had no problem being heard, but i had difficulty expressing the second in conjunction with the first two. In fact Mary claims i never said it. Trey said i did. Obviously i should have laid out my argument in bulletin format.

Next conversational piece was less controversial. I talked about what i was learning about Nietzsche. It was great. Michelle wanted to know the information i was giving and Mary whispered in my ear at one point how sexy she thought i looked as i was discussing this. I blushed inside, but doubt i blushed outside.

Unfortunatly, later Mary and I had to leave because this was not just thanksgiving, but our last night together. I enjoyed the hell out of thanksgiving.

I saw the graduate… great movie… absoleutly a surprising movie seeing that it is so old.
I saw Baraka… interesting and beautiful movie… if not disturbing in some points.. the manufacturing of chicks… horrible… made me want to be a vegetarian and bomb the local KFC.
—–Time warp from thanksgiving to the present—–
I saw Fantastic Planet last night. Strange movie about aliens who keep humans as pets. The whole of the movie demonstrates the adaptability of humans and how we can overthrow stronger creatures because we have the ability to adapt to situations. it was nice.

I am so fucking tired. I slept last night and i don’t think it did anything worth a damn. In fact i haven’t gotten much sleep at all in the past few days. See what time i am posting this? It is early.

Tonight after a long nap i might post more about last week, not like you guys are too terribly interested. It revolves around the love between me and Mary. It is a love that … see? i’m already boring you, or making you jealous which is not my intention.

a fond listing of key phrases from this weekend…
– West St Mary Port
– small talk
– abstract discussions
– the degree of love
– long conversations
– family catch up

I shall present my argument and those who have comments will have comments… the world will continue to progress through the cyclic nature it has always progressed from.. I will either appear to be a god.. or a poser… all interesting things happen in the end.

Interesting week incoming.
Monday: I present my infamous Nietzsche paper. It is incomplete. The presentation isn’t supposed to be complete. I wanted it complete. I failed myself.

Tuesday: I go to class and day-dream of picking Mary up. Then after class i get to pick Mary up. Tuesday night is censored.

Wednesday: First day to wake up next to Mary, which is something I can’t really explain to anyone about. It has to be the closest feeling to heaven i’d believe. Later in the day i believe we are going to eat lunch/breakfast with my uncle. Then i will go to class. Then Mary and I will go to Baton Rouge where we will meet with some of her friends and have a nice night of drinking and eating.

Thursday: Thanksgiving. I will wake up either next to Mary in Lafayette Louisiana or in a gutter in Baton Rouge Louisiana. This dichotomy hinges on the amount of alcohol consumed. OH i kid.. really i kill myself Honestly if i’m driving home, i’m not drinking anything. DO not worry. I will give thanks… several times.. I will also go to Mary’s family’s home to partake of their thanksgiving ritual. Later that night Mary and I shall retire to our existentially decorated apartment where i have several movies waiting for our consumption. The Graduate, Streetcar Named Desire, The Notebook, and Finding Neverland.

Friday: Thanksgiving is celebrated at my parent’s house. Much thanks will be giving as ritualistic style dictates. Mary and I shall retire for our final night together.

Saturday 5:00 Mary and I shall wake/or be awake and begin heading toward New Orleans. Her plane leaves at 7:00. Much saddness shall be felt and we will depart.
9:00 I will be at work in Berwick Louisiana. Saddness shall change to dissappointment.

Thats all… and now for a little rant. WTF IS GOING ON WITH LAFAYETTE? We get independant films but they leave without making a mark. I see now that i missed Finding Neverland, which is a gorgeous film about the creation of Peter Pan. It also has Johnny Depp, who is sexy as hell. Wish i could be him. Mary thinks i look like him a little, bless her deceived soul. I sure love hearing her say it though. Oh well… enough spewing…

Last night was a lot more fun then i have had in a good bit. We left at 6:00 and got to Tinseltown at 7:20. We talked about a lot of different things in the car ride over. Dr. Korcz apparently is a geek. He is in love with Star Trek, and he collects baseball cards because of the statistics, not the sport. On the other hand he does watch the sport and follow the sport because of the cards. Wierd huh?

We argued a lot and the whole night i seemed to be paired with Dr. Korcz while Michael was paired with Lydia. Michael and Lydia shared their experiences in college with each other and Michael expounded on his belief structure. Dr. Korcz and I just discussed music and popular culture. I kept telling him movies i thought he should see, and he would tell me music he thought i might like.

The movie itself was an interesting experience itself. Not as many people were there as the first time i saw it so the funny parts didn’t seem to get as much laughter as i felt they should. In fact they glossed over one of the funniest lines:
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Vivian Jaffe: Have you ever transcended space and time?
Albert Markovski: No. Yes. Uh, Time not space. No, I have no idea what you’re talking about.
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Comic heaven.. oh well. I can’t say they didn’t laugh it just didn’t seem to get the rousing hillarity i expected. All the same the movie has some damn good quotes in it.

hehe imdb is kewl… here is another good quote from the movie..

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Cricket: Jesus is never mad at us if we live with Him in our hearts!
Tommy Corn: I hate to break it to you, but He is – He most definitely is.
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oh well, after we watched the movie we went to go eat out at —-chili’s. I know… i’m not sure how we ended up there, i’m not the biggest fan of chili’s but it isn’t as though i hate it. Your options for eating drop severly with two vegetarians in the car. Inside chili’s Lydia and Michael had this huge discussion about food. Seeing as they are similar in edible habits, they had a lot to share apparently with each other about impressions and opinions. I tuned out, Dr. Korcz got interested and began arguing over the merits of a lifestyle. I kind of just sat there listening but not commenting..

Dietary habits tend to bore me, because they are so grounded in the beast of humanity. It is like arguing over whether or not i should breathe. Ultimately such an argument is pointless in my mind because to deny breath is to deny some form of neccessity. I’m not suggesting that these two ideas are equal they are just similar. If your a vegetarian i say bravo and congrats. You have managed a feat of willpower far surpassed most humans. You are able to restrain one of the fundamental urges in the human body. I don’t think i is neccessary to do this, but i can see the benefits.

Just don’t expect me to follow suit. I’d rather focus on how i treat other humans, rather then concern myself with how i treat animals. If i can get a few people to treat their fellow man with compassion and understanding, i’m happy.

Then on the way back home we listened to Modest Mouse and Franz Ferdinand. Both of which everyone seemed to enjoy. Lydia found it odd that i liked both bands. Apparenly she had been perusing my cd collection in the car and had formulated the opinion i’m into Gothic Rock and Jazz. That of course meant i couldn’t like everything else. I guess we all have problems of labeling people.

I dropped everyone off in their respected homes and then went to my respected abode to crash hard on my bed. Almost missed work this morning becuase i had apparently forgot to set my alarm.

oh well.. and now tonight i go to work. Life sucks. I wish i could do things like last night more often… i was fun.

four more days till Mary comes down here.