Tonight is going to be pretty good…
-Dr. Korcz confirmed.
-Lydia Confirmed.
-Michael Confirmed. Could potentially bring his wife.

It will be an interesting night. Oh well… supposed to debate over the merits of the movie also, not sure how that is going to go.

thats enough.. gonna go get some shut eye…

I did the whole e-mail conveyance of information. We are not sure how our family will respond but I thought the information was getting interesting and why hoard all this good information for myself? I like to share.

I wrote my anthropology paper. Not the best paper in the world. I kept turning an analysis of the republican convention into a political rant. Had to reign myself and delete whole paragraphs afterwards. In the end it looks like a restrained beast wrote the paper. Statements float to the surface and you can tell they are merely the precursor to an ideological rant, but they are abandoned as they are mentioned. It should be fine.

In other news… it is raining … I have class… i’m going to be wet… damnit…

Ok that is it.

I blame her lazyness.
Student A and I

Student A: Your in Anthropology of Religion right?
I: Yes I am…
A: Do you think he really wants eight pages worth of material for his paper?
I: Thats what he said he wanted… why?
A: I did mine and i just can’t get eight pages out of the ritual i evaluated.
I: What did you evaluate?
A: Well i evaluated a Catholic Mass which i had never been to in my whole life, but he did express concern about the topic. I’m not sure he wanted me to do it.
I: Then why did you do it?
A: Because My other option fell through, and other people are going to a baptist mass, so why can’t i go to a catholic?
I: I don’t know.. but if he suggested not doing it then your already starting out on a bad foot… here let me–
A: But I couldn’t do anything else…. i had to do it.. i was interested in it…
I: Well why don’t you go to the cathedral down town and take some notes on the decorations and iconography there and put it in your paper? —
A: He will be fine… He will like my paper i think…. How much is the paper worth?
I: Look i’m telling you, you really should write eight pages worth of material. If you don’t you will not get a good grade. Why don’t you go down to.. give me a second i’ll draw you a map…
A: It isn’t that big of a deal… i have a B in the class already and i’ll be fine…
I: I think the paper is worth a lot of credit in his class. He-
A: I’ll be fine i’m sure my paper is good
I: I can’t stress how awesome a sight this cathedral is, it is a mixture of modern day design and older architecture. There is so much gold inlaid around the walls and the marble pillars and the statues of jesus and the stain glass windows. It is an interesting place to go you could easily get four or five pages on simply describing the setting of the church….
A: Yeah… well i’ll see if i can get time to do that… but i don’t think i will have time…
I: It isn’t far…
A: Thanks for your help…

WTF did she want me to say? Oh sure your shitty paper is fine.. you did everything your little ignorant lazy ass could do so why should he expect more from you? Fuck you. What pisses me off most is that he is going to probably grade her lieniantly and give her a C…. AND SHE IS GOING TO BITCH ABOUT IT! and he is going to feel bad about it.

fucking lazy people.

P.S. I left out this major part but i don’t remember how it fit into the conversation. There was this point where she kept bringing up what everyone else was doing in the class and why it justified her actions… “such a such a person is evaluating a baptist mass… why can’t i do a catholic… such and such a person is doing a catholic mass and just because he is mormon it is ok.. me on the other hand i can’t do one?” something like that….

I just found out that i don’t have to work at the writing center the wednesday before thanksgiving. This means more time spent with Mary on Wednesday.

A non-political ranting… I’ve ranted enough. I’ve scared enough of my reader-base away… (Hah like I had one to begin with… it just sounds kewl to say)

I had a good discussion tonight. I spent a majority of the time bouncing ideas around with another philosopher, Lydia. She surprises me. I had such a wrong impression of her from the beginning. I was right she was and is struggling with understanding herself, but I didn’t give her enough credit. She is seriously having difficulty. I learned a lot about her beliefs.

I don’t agree with them, but that isn’t to surprising I don’t agree with Mary’s beliefs either. I bring that up because they believe in similar things. Yung and Energy are the major proponents for both people. Soul = energy. Lydia believes in Reincarnation with a flavor of Christian love in the background. Love thy neighbor being a major tenet.

It was a long fruitful discussion where we discussed Kant, Nietzsche, Plato, Socrates, Bush (yeah he snuck his pathetic ass into the conversation several times), and ideas. Man it has been a while since I talked ideas with a philosopher.

Michael, Lydia, Matt (not sure yet on the fence), and I are planning on driving to Baton Rouge this Thursday to watch I Heart Huckabees. Yes Yes I know I saw it already, but I’m not opposed to seeing it again. This time I might enjoy it and not try and analyze the incorrect use of philosophical concepts.

I’m also going to ask Dr. Korcz to see if he might want to go. He might like it. Trey turned it down… bastard… wants to work instead… bah…

-edited- i looped a part of the message for some reason… odd…

She had someone better to talk to… so I wait..

Well after much soul-searching and an argument with Trey I’ve flip-flopped again. Call me a flip flopper… I like to hear it.

I am still in serious anger at the ignorance shared by a majority of America due to the past election, mainly because it seems the consequences are going to be dire. BUT, I am willing to admit one key fact that I have said earlier but I never linked to this whole situation.

My argument used to be that if given the correct tools that anyone in this world could demonstrate a far more superior knowledge then we grant them on the whole. I argued that people are inherently able to make good decisions when given enough information about a subject. I was not wrong in this argument although I thought I had been after the election of 2004. I was wrong with linking the election of 2004 with a revolution of information. I thought that during the election the right information was getting out. I had naively been rampantly using my own understanding to truncate evidence for the whole of the USA. I was wrong.

Obviously it appeared to me that the information was getting out because I was pre-programmed to weed through the trash and find the truth. So it comes down to this, we need to fix this. Something has got to change. Christianity has to change. I can only see it this way. My argument is as follows.

-=-=(The extended entry includes an argument for this, I felt that I might offend you by keeping it here)=-=-

In the end Christianity is a tool. It is used for good and bad, and believe me there are a lot of good things that come out of Christian beliefs. My concern is that the negative things that come about due to Christian beliefs far outweigh the good. I wish everyone were as open-minded as my mom. She is the model Christian in my mind, her and Desmond Tutu of course. If there were more christians like her then the world would be a better place.

I face a unique problem. I have a lot of Christian friends who believe their prejudicial and inflammatory beliefs are okay to have. I’m starting to sever my connection with them. Is this a good thing? I don’t know I’m tired. Trey said that the answer isn’t to ignore them and not interact with them. I argue it certainly isn’t attacking their beliefs. I progress this argument by saying that as long as they vote my rights out of existence and they use my name to wage a holy war, I will cut ties to them.

They are right about this. There is a moral relativism that is growing in this country. What is more troubling is that it is spreading into the area of knowledge. Suddenly a notion of how little we can truly “know” gets thrown around to support the most absurd ideas. We can’t really know if ghosts are real or not, so why not believe in them for fun? Sure it is all fun and games until some psycho takes his belief in ghosts and decides to murder thousands of people in an attempt to create a ghost. My point? My point is this. We can know things. There are degrees of knowledge. We can know that on September 11th 2001 two planes were hijacked and piloted into the twin towers in New York City. We can know that our political system is not producing effective leaders. We can know that the Iraqi war was not based on solid evidence or sound reasoning. We can know that as much as Bush professes to be Christian, he doesn’t embody enough of the Christian ideals demonstrated by Christ himself. We can know the information tools we use on a daily basis are biased.

Finally we can know that there are a near infinite of truths in the world that are there for us to discover and know. Truth is not subjective.

Morality is necessary for our society to survive. Just like when I know adding 2 + 2 gives me 4, I know that my actions have an effect. I also know there are moral effects to some of my actions. I kill a person and I feel immoral about the action. There are negative effects in our society that occur due to that action. These are all evidence of moral codes in existence. A moral code is simply a law of nature that dictates how social animals co-exist. We see plenty of societies behind us that have failed because they didn’t recognize the moral codes in existence. They are like ruined airplanes at the bottom of a cliff, where great minds spent so much time trying to figure out how to fly. All they needed was to recognize the law of aerodynamics, and all we need to do is recognize the law of living.
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it is to late… maybe tomorrow..

120$ later and two weeks of my life passed by, and i feel better. Headaches are still with me, but the sore throat is passing away. It feels a little scratchy every so often, but the inflamation has died down greatly. I can’t figure out why. All i did was take some penicillin and some ibuproffin. Did not even get a shot.

Mom thinks it was the ibuproffin. All the same tonight is going to be the first night of mine where i can rest well.

Long time since i posted my occurances. I still feel bad. Throat acts as though it is on fire every time i swallow. I actually pull back expecting the pain. I’ve even been known to slam my fist down on a few tables/counter/walls at the pain while letting out an exasperated “FUCK”. All this is irrelevant.

I’m tired of talking about how bad i feel. Mary’s happy movers came by today. They were early. They were not supposed to be here till tomorrow. Where will little David lay his head tonight. They ransacked the place. took everything… i felt abused…

I am joking.. they did take everything though. I feel like me and Mary did break up and i’m trying to piece together what i have left. I have a bed….. i have two tables…. a computer… a chair… woo hoo i’m set.

now where did i put those sheets for my bed… i used to have a lot of things but i threw them away i believe. I was an idiot. I thought i wouldn’t need them again.

anyway i’m staying at mom and dad’s for tonight. Hopefully dad will drive my bed up to my apartment for friday. hopefully….

i want to sleep in my apartment tomorrow night…

at least till i’m evicted…

YES I AM!!!! I FEEL WORSE TODAY THEN I FELT MONDAY! I took medicine monday… how can you take medicine and feel worse afterwards… i’m going insane…