I had some interesting discussions today.. the Israeli-Palestinian war was debated by me and an Ex-Jew… the political campaign and media inadequacies were heatedly debated about at the cafe early this morning or.. last night however you wish to label the time frame…

my failure’s in debating with people… apparently I’m dogmatic and I approach things as a teacher and not a learner… of course this is coming from my brother… which means that he has a unique vantage point on my life…
I might act that way about my subject with him because we argue so much that I find if I don’t argue that way I’ll be trampled and my points will have less weight… so I find myself coming out of the gate in the beginning and setting up a whole argument before he has a chance to respond to anything… we have had a unique dynamic over our lives…

Only recently, in the past 2-4 years has he taken me seriously in any form of information exchange… before he would placate my whims.. and i think the reason is because I became forceful in my conclusions and I didn’t bow down… also because I had training in rhetoric… not to mention the subjects we talk about –> religion, morality, existence, -> are all subjects i study in depth.

Only lately have we picked up language which is awesome because it triumphs all the above ideas. Why you might ask? Mainly because the ideas above are filtered through language… There is a current trend in philosophy, spawned by Nietzsche btw, where we attack language for its inability to convey or explain reality. Language is very abstract. The real world is physical. How can an abstract entity explain something it is not even able to produce? or in other words how can an abstract entity and a physical entity interact… and they don’t… only humans force them to interact.. the medium is humanity…

What sucks about this is that Trey is the expert here… I’m the dawdling noob… but that isn’t to say I don’t have unique insight… just not the information to back my insight up… but i find myself still wanting to be looked at as an equal in the field… when before i didn’t share equality with trey in the previous fields… there can be no equality in a field i don’t have enough information in.. But this is changing… Trey is approaching linguistics from an English position and I’m approaching language from the philosopher’s position.

It is a unique dilemma. Philosophy has built up to linguistics… all the explanations of reality, morality, etc are byproducts of language… so language trumps it all… why talk about morals when you don’t even know where language and reality diverge?

Oh well… so i got knocked off my high block… its good… I’ve been thinking i needed to stop professing things as though they are true… Epistemology hurt last semester…

Me: you mean logic is flawed?
Korcz: you knew this… you kept saying this when you were taking symbolic logic…
Me: Yeah but not this fundamentally flawed… and it is such a simple flaw… but it destroys everything…
Korcz: It doesn’t destroy everything, it simply highlights it and says, “Yes philosopher, there is no real answer.”

It hurt to say the least… i thought i was making meager progress in understanding things… I’m just now getting used to changing my opinions like the wind… but it is severely disorienting…

anyway….. Below is a dream I had… Extended for brevity.
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I just got off the phone with Mary… she has a lot of things that are going great for her.. she was offered a job tutoring next semester and it pays the same as her teaching this semester + tuition reduction… on top of which she doesn’t have to grade so more time to run around like a freak in NYC… not to mention she has the opportunity to teach creative writing classes at night which will also pay a lot of money on top of the above tutoring… so in the end it will be a lot of money + a lot of time…. really sounds good….

i’m not tired so i came in here to fuck around… thinking i might go for a walk or something… i’m not sure what i’m going to do.. just not tired… i slept today though so that be the reason.. working all weekend then waking up so early to get to work on monday sucks…

I’m thinking i’m going to have to start charting my finances… i hate money though.. i hate devoting a part of my life deciding…
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She’s you’re not so special so look what you’ve done, boy
She’s you’re not so special so look what you’ve done

Now you wish she’d never come back here again
Oh, never come back here again
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oh well.. today in nietzsche we get a student giving his presentation… and judging by his paper it is either going to be a great presentation or a horrible one…

depending on how much work he did…

Mom and I are considering going to houston for the rennaissance festival. Maybe we can see Mike also.. This wednesday the philosophy club has a meeting detailing the impressions of the muslim community…

burn this city… this fire is out of control we are gonna burn this city… oh how i burn for you…

Wednesday also has me and Trey going to go see Outfoxed… an expose` of the fox news industry and their stilted view of “fair and balanced” reporting.. interesting…

heh i’m listening to franz ferdinand… Thursday i’m thinking of going out and seeing the poetry reading… why the fuck not…

i was supposed to come home and talk to Mary before i left for work.. but i couldn’t get in touch with her so i suppose the idea was abandoned… i am now getting dressed for work and i will leave here shortly…

And it is groovy… i blew my ego to astronomical proportions today… i tutored philosophy… just a few minutes ago.. i tutored one of my friends in ancient philosophy…

Thrice divided line… Analogy of the Cave… Third Man Argument… World is in constant change… war breeds new things…the perfect number is 10… pythagoras… zeno of paradoxes… on and on…

it was great… then she told me she is dropping out of college… i wanted to slap her… her argument is that it is getting in the way of her studying… i think she is rebelling against the interpretations… which is good.. but you can’t get the information unless you put up with the proffessor’s interpretations.. they are human they approach information from one position or if it is a good professor from several diffferent positions… but still they get filtered through their own perceptions… there is no objective view of the world…. there is just a consensus of subjective views…

oh well we talked about this.. i hope she doesn’t drop out for that reason.. i’ve seen too many of my friends drop because of stupid reasons…
*taps foot and sings “this fire is out of control.. we are gonna burn this city burn this city….”
but then again who am i to judge reasons as smart and stupid… my criteria is that if the reason isn’t life-threatening then it is stupid…the university is a great institution for acquring information… if you drop that your effectively saying you can’t handle the load of information…

it was interesting…. i think i am in an argumentative mood… one of my friends pointed it out.. trey pointed it out.. mary has been harping on it… i’m not sure why i’m so confrontive.. ego?

I got into a lot of arguments… i’m wiped out… i think i shall go to sleep…

Well here is the conclusion….

If I want to switch to an efficiency apartment before my lease is up… I must pay 200$ + new 6-month lease at the end of my current 6-month lease + 410$ a month rent for the efficiency…………. so it is 200 dollars upfront cost for a 70 dollar reduction in rent… not the most positive option..

If I want to abandon my current lease I would have to pay for rent through November and also pay a 400$ cancellation fee… on top of losing my deposit.
Neither of those are great options… or i could just stick it out till January 31st and find an apartment then… dilemmas..

Oh it is hilarious… the ammo is out…. Bush just misspoke in a rally, stating that, “we will not have an all-volunteer army.” After a few moments the CROWD corrected his mistake… and I can’t find the news story on CNN I had to see it on the Daily Show… sad… real sad…

http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/afp/20041016/ts_alt_afp/us_vote_bush_draft&cid=1506&ncid=1963&sid=96378801

Interesting but I don’t think the democrats are going to run with it…

it is hilarious though… for one thing he says it incorrectly… for another he is making a point of wanting to clarify what he said during the debate… for the final reason he has to be told by the audience he made a mistake.. Just hilarious…

I’m sitting in the writing center at UL at L looking around and pondering over the last few days. I’ve noticed something lately. Existential crises are rampant in the popular sphere.

Think about it, haven’t you noticed a general trend of advertising toward the existentially aware? My concern is that it is not taking the dilemma seriously, and using it as flippant remarks. In a sitcom earlier i noticed an offhand sarcastic comment, “Sounds like you got yourselves a regular existential dilemma there… I’ll leave you to it..” it was in reference to a really trite problem. That is where the comedy comes in… the fact that the problem was so trite compared to real problems… sarcasm abound…..

But anyways… one joke an existential epidemic does not make…

I looked at my bank account yesterday and found mysteriously an extra amount of funds inside of it…. I’m confused… not sure what happened…. I’m giving it some time before i act on it though… I’ve been known to misappropriate funds and dig myself into a bigger hole… and it isn’t necessary right now…

There is an added bonus to working every weekend at Berwick…. i haven’t had to come up with money for groceries yet…. hah… interesting…
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I’ve been arguing a lot with Mary lately… it seems like every time we talk on the phone we get into an argument of some kind… she brought it to my attention earlier… i don’t know who’s fault it is or if it is anyone’s fault at all.. maybe the stress of the long distance relationship…. maybe I’m doing what I tend to do which is evaluate a set solely by the experience of one of it’s members that tends to mimic the others in the set… the point being that I might be prejudiced because I just had another argument… I jokingly remarked that it wasn’t false advertisement… I enjoy arguing… but I also find it tiresome… I think it is just tonight come to think of it… last night’s conversation was similar but it also was good at some point… the point before that the conversation was really nice… so who knows…

I’m tainting the evidence with knowledge obtained recently…

Oh well she had a headache and she went to bed early… no doubt caused by yours’ truly…

I’m not tired…………….