i could be insane…. i could be insane…
a bad day has coalesced into a bad couple of days and is ongoing to create what seems like a bad blur of occurences…
when will it end? I don’t know…
i’m tired yet cannot sleep… the plane ride was not the best… was not the worst… i visited with mom and dad last night and it got me thinking about a lot of things…
i’ve gotten comfortable again… i knew this would happen… but hey there is a silver lining… i could be insane….. i could be insane…. i could be insane…
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disturbing? it shouldn’t be i was bored.. you should relax. there are patterns everywhere…
circles within circles… now the question is.. would it be better if he were insane? or would the world be better were he to interpret that he were insane and therefore his interpretations are all flawed due to his insanity?
January 11th, 2005 at 3:54 pm
I was wondering why you weren’t in class yesterday. Now I think I understand …. I am reminded of the book ‘Life, the Universe, and Everything’. There are a few lines that go something like this: “Arthur whooped with delight. Only just this morning he had decided to go insane and here he was already chasing a Chesterfield sofa through the fields of prehistoric earth.” Classic. Eddies in the space-time continuum. Oh he is, is he? I wish I could remember it exactly. Yesterday, in typical Korcz fashion, he read the syllabus to us. Then we discussed a couple of sample ontologies and their implications. I have notes if you need them. I believe we will talk this week about reality and that it is objective, not subjective – surprise after surprise. I’m looking forward to the really good stuff. Get well soon.
January 11th, 2005 at 5:22 pm
Uh… all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy? I just had a “Shining” moment…
January 11th, 2005 at 8:30 pm
Uh, please call me.
January 14th, 2005 at 8:22 am
I saw a movie lately called the Aviator, and one of the things that Hughes did when he had an episode was go into a rambling state where he found himself compelled to repeat one phrase over and over again. I feel like that sometimes. I feel as though i see things that most people don’t and then it bothers me and i end up repeating things in my head and focusing on my actions of my body. The thing is i think everyone is like this, and it is an inhibitor that keeps us from sharing these ideas. The chemical inhibitor is what is packaged in pills and sold to people with mental illnesses. Lithium perhaps? I don’t know was contemplating this when i wrote this passage and remarked at how everytime i tended to read the phrase it changes. Strange i know..