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I’m sick… i feel like shit… I don’t even know what i’m suffering from…

– Serious vertigo
– everytime i move my eyes my consciousness is behind by a mile…
– serious weakness
– fucking scatterbrained schitzophrenia.. mind is racing…

i swear i’d say it were drugs but i haven’t a clue what the hell would have effected me because

i happen to be currently watching one of the strangest fucking movies in the world…

it covers.. god damnit i can’t type… forget it.. this is impossible.. maybe sleeping would be better…

i’m fucking tired… i’m in a state of consistent decay… last night was good.. problems seem to be averted… solutions are found.. objects are described… paper is getting interesting… sleep was nice… almost too nice difficult to get up this morning… words are poison darts of pleasure… jealousy runs abound…

hehe sometimes you should just never fucking translate a word…

franz ferdinand..
Ich heisse Super Fantastisch
Ich trinke Schampus mit Lachsfisch
Ich heisse Super Fantastisch.

translation:
I am called super Fantastisch
I drink Schampus with salmon fish
I hot super Fantastisch.

existential dilemma reconcidered.. i do not exist… this is thereby proven and accepted.. this is all creations of my imagination… i have no body… i can’t even imagine i’m simply programmed to do this… insane child…
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NOR HAVE I WORKED ON MY PAPER! god damn the world for conspiring against me… procrastination… and world events…

Had a long conversation with Trey… was nice… aparently no one in the family is doing good.. Trey is not happy… Dad is not happy… I am not happy… but the world continues… and we see the sun raise every day don’t we…

I just took a shower… i’m about to hear about someone’s walk with wittgenstein… fun eh?

Good news is it is supposed to be inside a church i’ve never been to and the church is said to be gorgeous on the inside… been wanting to see it… supposed to be a little slice of architecture in Lafayette… i can’t wait….

hope it isn’t dissappointing…

absoluetly hellish… it was the longest most agonizing class i’ve been through.. the professor drones sometimes… and on this particular day he was bad…

oh well..

i’m wiped out now.. but i can’t sleep… i have to work on my paper some… yes nietzsche… must concentrate on nietzsche……..

i haven’t slept yet… and class is starting soon.. wow… should have slept..

Jon Stuart… wow.. after a day of being angry at the inability i see within the world for change i get a man with a lighthearted and yet very serious take on reality. The method of delivery is light-hearted while the subject matter is very serious.

First was the PBS show with Charlie Rose where Jon pontificated about strange things like politicians are monkeys throwing feces and that the media should not be saying, “thats what they (politicians and monkeys) do.” instead they should be stating that, “That is what they do, but still those are Bad Monkeys.”

bad metaphor but it worked in his context… one way metaphor… can’t go backwards

C-Span question and answer period… awesome… he is hillarious… and he makes me feel like the world isn’t that bad… one statement i like that he said…

“When bush says, “Let history judge if i’ve made a mistake.” is unfortunatly wrong. We don’t have the time to let history be the judge. We need to judge now because the reactions of the judgements are here and now. ”

beautiful statement. and i paraphrased because i’m horrible at quoting.. horrible.. so now i’m going to be making a recording of this on tape for my history proffessor…

Outfoxed disturbed me greatly… History of the Modern African American Experience disturbed me also… and listening to a man rant about how his “religion” was more accurate then another man’s religion disturbed me. That was the philosophy meeting on The Muslim Religion, which detailed what Christianity Was and Islam Was Not.

subtle difference eh?

I’ve also spent some time today watching Jon Stuart being interviewed by different media outlets.. interesting… i’m watching it right now… PBS Charlie Rose is on right now… interesting..

For an atheist i appeal to a personal god a lot don’t I? Contradiction? perhaps not… but irrelevant..

Jon Stuart has mobilized a strike on various fronts…
cspan
crossfire (of course)
charlie rose
60 minutes…
etc…

he is a virtual media frenzy now…

go him…

and on a completly related side… yet more depressing…

I watched outfoxxed today… wow… i’ll talk about it friday or tomorrow… i’m too depressed…

I so wasn’t ready for the papers people are writing in Nietzsche’s class. Topics of popular choice are:

1) Christianity and how it has perverted Christ’s views.
2) The Herd and all the wonderful understanding that can come from such a topic…
3) The Ubermensche… or as I like to jest with the people who chose the topic, “The Ubermensche, and why I’m not one even though I choose this topic to make it seem like I were”

Boring choices eh? I’m on my second report right now destroying Christianity. It’s a blast… really it is.. don’t you see how pleased I am? *sarcasm falls short in typeface*

Honestly, I wish people would abandon the Nietzsche -> Christian link completely. It is highly overused.. In fact, I’ve noticed a general trend in my class. No one is attacking Nietzsche’s views. The smartest person I’ve seen in class is simply doing a translation of another philosopher’s work. I say simply, but I mean non-philosophical essay consisting of a translation. Is that good or bad? neither. I’m excited about his essay, I just wish more people were taking contrary views to Nietzsche. Perhaps approaching it from a point of how much bullshit Nietzsche is. Maybe I am in the minority with this viewpoint.

Don’t get me wrong I appreciate a lot of what I have learned about Nietzsche. I was too harsh on him before I took this class. I obviously knew very little about him, which is disconcerting because I took a class on him earlier. I still believe though that his arguments are fundamentally flawed. Some are good. His critique of language, awesome. His critique of morality, interesting yet flawed. Eternal recurrence, bullshit. Ubermensche, nice idea and maybe in a physical evolutionary sense, but not a good use for value theory. Recognizing the will to power? priceless. I appreciate his evaluation of the will to power. It is his most useful treatise aside from the critique of language. But both awesome doctrines contradict each other thereby producing a kind of failure ultimately.

So in the end my paper on morality in the Nietzsche sense is going to end up being a destruction of Nietzsche’s moral claims. Yes I will make appeals that might work but I will also highlight objections that must arise.

oh well speaking of let me get back to doing just that.

I had some interesting discussions today.. the Israeli-Palestinian war was debated by me and an Ex-Jew… the political campaign and media inadequacies were heatedly debated about at the cafe early this morning or.. last night however you wish to label the time frame…

my failure’s in debating with people… apparently I’m dogmatic and I approach things as a teacher and not a learner… of course this is coming from my brother… which means that he has a unique vantage point on my life…
I might act that way about my subject with him because we argue so much that I find if I don’t argue that way I’ll be trampled and my points will have less weight… so I find myself coming out of the gate in the beginning and setting up a whole argument before he has a chance to respond to anything… we have had a unique dynamic over our lives…

Only recently, in the past 2-4 years has he taken me seriously in any form of information exchange… before he would placate my whims.. and i think the reason is because I became forceful in my conclusions and I didn’t bow down… also because I had training in rhetoric… not to mention the subjects we talk about –> religion, morality, existence, -> are all subjects i study in depth.

Only lately have we picked up language which is awesome because it triumphs all the above ideas. Why you might ask? Mainly because the ideas above are filtered through language… There is a current trend in philosophy, spawned by Nietzsche btw, where we attack language for its inability to convey or explain reality. Language is very abstract. The real world is physical. How can an abstract entity explain something it is not even able to produce? or in other words how can an abstract entity and a physical entity interact… and they don’t… only humans force them to interact.. the medium is humanity…

What sucks about this is that Trey is the expert here… I’m the dawdling noob… but that isn’t to say I don’t have unique insight… just not the information to back my insight up… but i find myself still wanting to be looked at as an equal in the field… when before i didn’t share equality with trey in the previous fields… there can be no equality in a field i don’t have enough information in.. But this is changing… Trey is approaching linguistics from an English position and I’m approaching language from the philosopher’s position.

It is a unique dilemma. Philosophy has built up to linguistics… all the explanations of reality, morality, etc are byproducts of language… so language trumps it all… why talk about morals when you don’t even know where language and reality diverge?

Oh well… so i got knocked off my high block… its good… I’ve been thinking i needed to stop professing things as though they are true… Epistemology hurt last semester…

Me: you mean logic is flawed?
Korcz: you knew this… you kept saying this when you were taking symbolic logic…
Me: Yeah but not this fundamentally flawed… and it is such a simple flaw… but it destroys everything…
Korcz: It doesn’t destroy everything, it simply highlights it and says, “Yes philosopher, there is no real answer.”

It hurt to say the least… i thought i was making meager progress in understanding things… I’m just now getting used to changing my opinions like the wind… but it is severely disorienting…

anyway….. Below is a dream I had… Extended for brevity.
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