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I just got off the phone with Mary… she has a lot of things that are going great for her.. she was offered a job tutoring next semester and it pays the same as her teaching this semester + tuition reduction… on top of which she doesn’t have to grade so more time to run around like a freak in NYC… not to mention she has the opportunity to teach creative writing classes at night which will also pay a lot of money on top of the above tutoring… so in the end it will be a lot of money + a lot of time…. really sounds good….

i’m not tired so i came in here to fuck around… thinking i might go for a walk or something… i’m not sure what i’m going to do.. just not tired… i slept today though so that be the reason.. working all weekend then waking up so early to get to work on monday sucks…

I’m thinking i’m going to have to start charting my finances… i hate money though.. i hate devoting a part of my life deciding…
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She’s you’re not so special so look what you’ve done, boy
She’s you’re not so special so look what you’ve done

Now you wish she’d never come back here again
Oh, never come back here again
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oh well.. today in nietzsche we get a student giving his presentation… and judging by his paper it is either going to be a great presentation or a horrible one…

depending on how much work he did…

Mom and I are considering going to houston for the rennaissance festival. Maybe we can see Mike also.. This wednesday the philosophy club has a meeting detailing the impressions of the muslim community…

burn this city… this fire is out of control we are gonna burn this city… oh how i burn for you…

Wednesday also has me and Trey going to go see Outfoxed… an expose` of the fox news industry and their stilted view of “fair and balanced” reporting.. interesting…

heh i’m listening to franz ferdinand… Thursday i’m thinking of going out and seeing the poetry reading… why the fuck not…

i was supposed to come home and talk to Mary before i left for work.. but i couldn’t get in touch with her so i suppose the idea was abandoned… i am now getting dressed for work and i will leave here shortly…

And it is groovy… i blew my ego to astronomical proportions today… i tutored philosophy… just a few minutes ago.. i tutored one of my friends in ancient philosophy…

Thrice divided line… Analogy of the Cave… Third Man Argument… World is in constant change… war breeds new things…the perfect number is 10… pythagoras… zeno of paradoxes… on and on…

it was great… then she told me she is dropping out of college… i wanted to slap her… her argument is that it is getting in the way of her studying… i think she is rebelling against the interpretations… which is good.. but you can’t get the information unless you put up with the proffessor’s interpretations.. they are human they approach information from one position or if it is a good professor from several diffferent positions… but still they get filtered through their own perceptions… there is no objective view of the world…. there is just a consensus of subjective views…

oh well we talked about this.. i hope she doesn’t drop out for that reason.. i’ve seen too many of my friends drop because of stupid reasons…
*taps foot and sings “this fire is out of control.. we are gonna burn this city burn this city….”
but then again who am i to judge reasons as smart and stupid… my criteria is that if the reason isn’t life-threatening then it is stupid…the university is a great institution for acquring information… if you drop that your effectively saying you can’t handle the load of information…

it was interesting…. i think i am in an argumentative mood… one of my friends pointed it out.. trey pointed it out.. mary has been harping on it… i’m not sure why i’m so confrontive.. ego?

I got into a lot of arguments… i’m wiped out… i think i shall go to sleep…

Well here is the conclusion….

If I want to switch to an efficiency apartment before my lease is up… I must pay 200$ + new 6-month lease at the end of my current 6-month lease + 410$ a month rent for the efficiency…………. so it is 200 dollars upfront cost for a 70 dollar reduction in rent… not the most positive option..

If I want to abandon my current lease I would have to pay for rent through November and also pay a 400$ cancellation fee… on top of losing my deposit.
Neither of those are great options… or i could just stick it out till January 31st and find an apartment then… dilemmas..

Oh it is hilarious… the ammo is out…. Bush just misspoke in a rally, stating that, “we will not have an all-volunteer army.” After a few moments the CROWD corrected his mistake… and I can’t find the news story on CNN I had to see it on the Daily Show… sad… real sad…

http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/afp/20041016/ts_alt_afp/us_vote_bush_draft&cid=1506&ncid=1963&sid=96378801

Interesting but I don’t think the democrats are going to run with it…

it is hilarious though… for one thing he says it incorrectly… for another he is making a point of wanting to clarify what he said during the debate… for the final reason he has to be told by the audience he made a mistake.. Just hilarious…

I’m sitting in the writing center at UL at L looking around and pondering over the last few days. I’ve noticed something lately. Existential crises are rampant in the popular sphere.

Think about it, haven’t you noticed a general trend of advertising toward the existentially aware? My concern is that it is not taking the dilemma seriously, and using it as flippant remarks. In a sitcom earlier i noticed an offhand sarcastic comment, “Sounds like you got yourselves a regular existential dilemma there… I’ll leave you to it..” it was in reference to a really trite problem. That is where the comedy comes in… the fact that the problem was so trite compared to real problems… sarcasm abound…..

But anyways… one joke an existential epidemic does not make…

I looked at my bank account yesterday and found mysteriously an extra amount of funds inside of it…. I’m confused… not sure what happened…. I’m giving it some time before i act on it though… I’ve been known to misappropriate funds and dig myself into a bigger hole… and it isn’t necessary right now…

There is an added bonus to working every weekend at Berwick…. i haven’t had to come up with money for groceries yet…. hah… interesting…
Continue reading “Hmm this is message from you local insanity clinic…”

I’ve been arguing a lot with Mary lately… it seems like every time we talk on the phone we get into an argument of some kind… she brought it to my attention earlier… i don’t know who’s fault it is or if it is anyone’s fault at all.. maybe the stress of the long distance relationship…. maybe I’m doing what I tend to do which is evaluate a set solely by the experience of one of it’s members that tends to mimic the others in the set… the point being that I might be prejudiced because I just had another argument… I jokingly remarked that it wasn’t false advertisement… I enjoy arguing… but I also find it tiresome… I think it is just tonight come to think of it… last night’s conversation was similar but it also was good at some point… the point before that the conversation was really nice… so who knows…

I’m tainting the evidence with knowledge obtained recently…

Oh well she had a headache and she went to bed early… no doubt caused by yours’ truly…

I’m not tired…………….

I’m sitting here pondering over statements made in the past and I am attempting to try and get some things together…. I talked to Mom today… it was a really good conversation…. I said a couple things that were bothering me and she just listened… it felt good… Real good in fact…

I’ve figured some things out…. first I need to get this Nietzsche paper done… second I need to get out of this apartment… third… I need to study for GRE… fourth I need to take the GRE… Fifth I need to setup a regiment where I get out of this house and do things for fun… Sixth I need to let go of some of the things I’m worrying about and realize that this is my life and I can either sit back and watch it perform the tasks necessary or I can yet again take up the reigns and have fun… it has been so long since I’ve had fun by myself..

I think that is why I don’t feel good…. I’ve been more concerned about what “will” happen then concerned about what is actually happening… interesting dilemma…