trials and tribulations of StryxDomina

her tales amaze you, but until it occurs first hand you never know the fury that may be wrought.

I was graced with the prescience of my cousin StryxDomina this weekend. It was a very awesome visitation. We explored many parts of Manhattan I have yet to see as per post before, but today was to be her last half day in NYC. She had plans. Mainly to go to NYC and see wall street during a work day. Apparently her phone had plans also. Those plans didn’t involve being charged up nice and ready for extensive discourse.

-> point of reference, she asked me why she seemed to attract conservative men and I wish I had had presence of mind to alert her to the fact that going to wall street wasn’t the best way to not attract conservative men. Just a post thought.

So we decided the best route would be to get my landlord to buzz her in and leave my apartment door unlocked so she could into the house and retrieve her bags. OH my. Little did we know we have a third party that has equal access to our apartment. He has been recently in a contest for Queen. I forgot he comes into our apartment and washes his clothes. I forgot. I sooooo should have left a note to maintain the unlocked status of the door. But I did not. Stryx’s travel luck is such that the door was locked. I gave her my keys to get into the apartment. So now as we speak she is racing back to my home and grab her belongings, then she is going to race to LGA and hopefully catch her plane that is supposed to be leaving the airport at 5:03.

I’m hopeful, but I’m also on contingency mode.

But of course there is no real way for me to know if she didn’t make it to the plane because she doesn’t have a fully charged cell phone, unless she borrows someone else’s phone to make the call.

I feel bad, had I thought more in advance I’d have remembered to write a note for our next door neighbor. But I did not.

That is a lot of failure’s in a row. Stryx is bad luck when it comes to traveling. Remind me never to plan a trip to Europe with her ;).

today has to be the most boring day of my life.

My office has been commandeered. I’m residing outside my office. I do not have much work I need to do, because we have gotten very few drafts back from partners. I am just sitting here. Lucky to be sitting I guess, DN left early today so his desk was free. I could be twiddling my fingers standing up. I AM SO BORED!

so let me think of something to do.

License

Ah HAH! there is a year’s worth of time after your license expires for you to get it renewed. I had a year long grace period. After a year I need to take the whole test again, but now I have until 2009. I was looking at my brand new stamped driver’s license and came to a realization:

we are in the future.

Some how some-way we have used a time machine to go into the future. I have documents detailing dates like 2009. Two thousand and fucking nine. my god. This is the future that previous telepaths and fortune tellers have been predicting.

It isn’t as I had imagined. isn’t there a song that asks, “where are all the flying cars?” I’m a generation behind, but 2009 was always my date for the future. it was always the “wow I wonder what life will be like then” kind of year for me.

oh well. to each his/her own.

I am so screwed.

Well friends and family, welcome to my day in hell. I’ve gotten clogged in the lines of beurocracy.

Friday is my birthday, which means two very important deadlines come about.

First: After Friday, I will be able to rent vehicles from rental agencies without paying an under age penalty fee. WHEE!
Secondly: I need to renew my driver’s license, preferably attain a New Jersey driver’s license.

See the dilemma yet? let me lay it out for you. If I don’t renew my license, I can’t rent a car.
here comes the kicker, I can’t renew/transfer my driver’s license because I do not have a primary form of identification. WHAA!?! PRIMARY FORM OF IDENTIFICATION?!? Oh and out of state driver’s licenses are not considered primary forms of identification. Apparently the only primary form of identification I qualify for is the good ole official copy of your birth certificate. I don’t have one of those anymore. Rita came and took it from me. SO! what is a man to do?

I know I Know… fly down to Lafayette Louisiana, talk to the hospital that gave birth to me those 25 beautiful years ago, and get an “Official Copy”. Too bad I’m broke. So what use is a driver’s license? OHhhh right I cannot get on an airplane with a plane ticket I purchased because my “picture id” will be out of date……………. SOOOooooooo I’m fucked.

want to hear some more catch 22s?

So we got this holiday coming up called Christmas. I currently make just enough money to maintain all my bills and eat paycheck to paycheck. I was planning on getting a better job BEFORE Christmas so I could maintain my previous quota for gift giving, but after purchasing the flights to Louisiana and with my brother’s visit scheduled for after Christmas my slush fund for presents has deteriorated severely. SO I do in fact get a job before Christmas, but it starts so late in December that I will not receive a check before Christmas. In fact I will not receive a check before the beginning of the next month which is when rent is due. So so so so so… Christmas unf will be small and quaint. I hope my family understands that my presence (sp?) is one of my presents to them.

Oh well other then those two little quirks I’m doing very well. Michelle is coming up on the 16th. I’m excited.

Job status

It is official.

I have been rejected from the ACLU. It saddens me to say that according
to the ACLU, they had a immense amount of applicants for the Legal
Secretary position in the women’s rights division, and felt that
another’s abilities were more in line with their needs.

Don’t cry for me Argentina.

Meanwhile, a paralegal position opened not to long ago at L.C.B.F. I
applied and have been accepted. Now to gain experience so I can perhaps
use it for a better cause. I have also signed a contract with the
devil. He says he wants my soul. In the words of my good friend
Snaars, “What is a soul worth anyhow?, it hasn’t done anything for me
yet.”

ominous words. I will not be helping corporate America make money off
of individual America, I will be putting people’s claims to the test.
So they don’t use the legal system dishonestly. In the end I’ll be
taking the role of the litmus test, except instead of acids and bases,
I’ll be helping test the validity of people’s claims…

job

Well, I got home last night and in a fit of urgency I began scanning the
job postings on Idealist.org in hopes that I could begin working on
getting a job. Well the process used to be like this:
1) Find the job post, bookmark it, begin formulating cover letter and
then adapt the resume to fill the requirements listed for the job.
2) Send my adapted information to Mary where she will read over comment
and then send it back.
3) I would finally review her edits and send the information to the
human resources department.

This would take two days total on a “Quick” run. Recently it took me so
long to edit a job application that the post vanished before I could
send my information and apply. Depressing.

So last night I revised Mary and caution out of the equation. On a whim
I viewed five job opportunities and crafted a cover letter that was far
from perfect, but I assumed would be enough to give me a chance for each
job opportunity. I sent the resume/cal off and didn’t even mark it down
anywhere. Yes, it was a daunting prospect, but I did it. I’ve already
received a response from one application. I have an interview Monday.
I’m excited as hell.

I think it is substantially more money per hour then my current salary,
which would be nice. It is also in New York, which might not be so
nice. Oh well. We will see how it works out.

Current Family Update

This is for family and friends to know exactly what happened with my
family. (I hope most of my family are still reading this, yet I doubt
it.)

Let me begin by saying the good news, my family is safe and alive.

For those unfamiliar with the location of the ramke estate, it is
located in a little rural area called Backer. A nearby tourist
attraction is called the Grotto which according to legend, is a rock
found in the middle of a forest. I on the other hand know that the
“rock” is merely a plaster hollow shell made to look like a rock. But
far be it for me to disprove a religious belief.

My brother resided in our home which is approx 1/6 mile (probably less)
from the vermillion river. My parents had also recently, about 16 days
ago, moved into the sub-house on that plot of land. It is called the
chateaux I believe, spelling is probably off. So when Louisiana came
under hurricane alert, My parents and brother evacuated, which is good
because they may have not been able to survive had they stayed. now.
Since the water has drained out of the area, my parents were able to
visit and find out exactly what was left of their homes.

According to a long telephone conversation last night, it was determined
that a around 4-5 feet of water entered our home destroying all of their
books (big one here, my brother being the scholar he is owned a good
amount of books), electronics (being a fellow geek he had a few of these
gadgets as well that were destroyed), furniture (which means no bed,
couch, tables, refrigerators, stoves, etc.), clothing (might be cleaned,
not sure), and one car.

My family is faced with attempting to rebuild what they had not 7-8 days
ago.

This has to be the most serious setback I’ve ever seen. If I were
religious I’d pray, but realizing prayer is ineffectual I will instead
continue to offer as much assistance as I can to my family. I’ve asked
my boss if I could take time off to go down there and help with the
clean-up effort and he has stated that since next month is a quarterly
month that wouldn’t be possible. SO! I could quit and go down there
are help them out, but they would get really angry at me for doing that
not to mention the financial strain that would put on all parties
involved. In fact it really is not an option.

I feel so helpless.

Hello.

Here is the thing. This colloquium I think was one of the most
interesting points in my life since moving up to New York. It taught me
two major things about my life. The first is that no matter how much
Philosophy I studied in College, it was simply a guide into much more
rocky and torrential terrain then I could ever have perceived. The
second is that I really enjoy that terrain.

I remember vaguely when during several classes when Professor’s made off
hand remarks about how “unimportant” and “technical” certain words could
be. For instance, Dr. Korcz opened the quagmire called identity and
left it open saying that, “identity theory can get really technical and
complex so lets not concern ourselves with it right now”. during my
metaphysics class. Now you might notice that “identity” comes into the
title of colloquium. It is important to understand that, because in the
end that was a key point to the whole discussion.

Now a second thing you must understand is that I will not be relaying
his whole speech here. I’m simply organizing my own thoughts about the
whole discussion. I did not understand a lot of the verbiage. The
discussion began with an introduction that listed his main concerns.

What does it mean to be a liberal?
– He quotes J.S.Mill in answering this. According to Mill the argument
is similar as to what follows.
P1 There was a point in the past in which I was wrong. (unequivocal
fact. No argument available)
P2 It could be the cast that I am currently wrong in any belief I hold.
C1 Therefore I should approach any contrary opinion with the notion that
they could be conceived correct at some point.

What is identity?
– Now in this example he quotes someone who I’m unfamiliar with (Aier
perhaps? his accent confused the name for me) to describe commitments
and how they are setup as defining identity. This is where it gets
vague and confusing. I.E. No clear cut premises-conclusion structure.
A person has commitments depending on the identity they choose to bind
themselves with. If you identify with the Muslim faith, then you follow
the Koran and other such tenements. He went on to say that you often
adhere to commitments in the present more strongly if in the future you
see your self losing those commitments. In other words, A Muslim sees
his culture dying out and therefore finds himself adhering to
commitments more fanatically then before. This is how a person’s moral
identity is supposed to be structured. This is also how it was given in
the lecture. ……. I feel like I’ve left a lot out.

Another portion of the lecture was spent discussing relations of
commitments. This was a big chunk of the discussion and also a major
point in his argument. His argument is that there seem to be relations
between ideas that are not simply mechanical. (exact terms vary I did
not take notes because I left my pencil at home……… sigh.)

Set one:
– To do philosophy
– To eat vitamins after every meal

Set two:
– To do philosophy
– To do all in one’s ability to please one’s father. (in this example to
do philosophy is not contrary nor counter to pleasing one’s father)

According to him, the second set has a relationship with each other that
cannot be explained mechanically. He argues that it is not the case
that to do one is to also do two, nor is it the case to do in
accomplishing one, two is fulfilled. They are separate ideas not
causally chained in any fashion. He goes on to point out that there
still seems to be a relationship between the two ideas. He steps back
and says that this simple example can be extrapolated to commitments
across the knowledge area and that these relationships make up the
identities of the individual involved.

His conclusion is that the liberalist argument fails when you take into
account the myth of Odysseus (may be incorrect with my knowledge of
Grecian myths, I want to say he called the guy Sisyphus but I know it
isn’t that myth). When Odysseus lashes himself to the mast and tells
his shipmates to not let him free no matter what he will say in the
future, there is an understanding that Odysseus future self will have
commitments that are different then what his commitments are now. Now
let us assume that in the future while lashed to the ship, another ship
appears and attempts to capture the ship. If Odysseus argues in the
future that they should unlash him to fight off the invading ship, then
he would be obeying by a commitment of his previous self and yet the
commitment would be evaluated using a new means of evaluation.

My overall understanding of this is seriously rocky, and I don’t think I
should post this. I am assuming that this contradiction between
previous selves and future selves makes the argument for liberalism
flawed and not as inductive as it should be. Hmm… let me think about
this some more. A major comment through the discourse is that Mill’s
setup is to create an argument that is deductive and all inclusive and
not reliant upon evaluative stances. In other words, his argument is as
base and core to understanding as all other arguments should be. This
is also the appeal. The contents within his argument cannot be disputed
as far as I can tell, it is just the conclusion that raises concern.