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This was an interesting night at the movies. Mary went into Manhattan for some pre-arranged business appointments, and i was supposed to go into the city and meet her to watch this movie. This was right after i watched TLAWSZ(talked about earlier). So i mile around the apartment startling the cats as i usually do, then jump on the Path train to go see this movie. I’m waiting outside the theater for Mary, when i begin to notice EVERYONE is going to this movie. It apparently is new and We are not the only ones curious. Finally Mary shows up 6 minutes late (she crossed several avenues and several blocks to get here, the tardiness was just neccessary due to spacial displacement). So we decide to go to a ritzy restaurant and wait till the next showing, 9:00.

The movie begins like one would expect after seeing the trailer.

Overall Impressions
– Very entertaining documentary of this man’s life.
– Curious about the facts behind the movie, what i know of the studies conducted they were and still are considered to have been very ethical in nature. The Majority of his research came from interviewing people about their sexual habits.
– I’m very surprised at how good Liam Neeson is in this movie.
– On the fictional side.
— There is an interesting argument going throughout the film. One side is the puritanical side of sexuality, and the other side is the mechanistic side of sexuality. I love how the movie portrays this because there seems to be a third side born from their strife. Born isn’t the right verb, the side exists and most see it and agree with it. The third side is the concern that sex is the greatest explanation of Love. Favorite quote, “Clyde Martin: Sex is a risky game, because if you’re not careful, it will cut you wide open.” He was crying during the statement because his wife had fallen in love with a co-worker of his because his co-worker has been cheating on his own wife with her. Of course this is all in the open. In the Kinsey “family”, sexual desires are the upmost importance and you should obey as many as are safe. Like a Hegelian dialectic the third view that is demonstrated as the most accurate is the understanding of our physiological mechanics for sexuality and yet our emotional attatchment to individuals. In other words, Sex isn’t just a mechanism nor is it something to be ashamed of.
– The above is demonstrated through the life of the researchers, and the work surrounding the whole database collection.

Pre-Review announcement:
http://www.rottentomatoes.com/vine/showthread.php?t=388787
GO and watch these deleted scenes from Lord of the Rings… they are awesome.

Who the hell would have thought that Bill Murray could be in a movie that is primarily comedic and end up not making you laugh once? I don’t get it. The movie was dry and boring. The timing of the comedic act was incredibly off. In fact when i told several people i hated the movie they said that it was because i wasn’t “High.” I shrugged, i guess i’m not cool.

Apparently according to Rotten Tomatoes, 50% of the reviewers aren’t cool either.
The movie went no where fast… one minute it was a documentary.. then it ws an attempt at comedy… and then suddenly out of no where it is an action film… and finally ends up being nothing more then garbeled boredom. I left the film as soon as the film hit the credits… everyone else stuck around for some odd reason… as though it warranted a reading of the credits…

Peer to Peer companies beware, you could go to jail. New law proposal means that if you create a program intended to transfer data from one computer to another, it could lead to legal wrangles.
” This bill would provide that any person or entity that sells,
advertises, or distributes peer-to-peer file sharing software, as
defined, that enables the user to electronically disseminate
recordings or audiovisual works over the Internet who fails to
exercise reasonable care in preventing use of the software to commit
an unlawful act with respect to a commercial recording or audiovisual
work, or a violation of provisions related to production,
possession, distribution, or advertisement of obscene matter
depicting a minor under 18 years of age, or tampering with,
interference with, damage to, or unauthorized access to computer data
or systems, is punishable by a fine not exceeding $2,500,
imprisonment in a county jail for a period not to exceed one year, or
by both that fine and imprisonment.”

Hehe yeah this is the case… funny eh? Think it will pass? OH WAIT IT WOULD OUTLAW THE INTERNET-EMAIL-INTERNET CHAT-WEB CAMS- etc… damn… that sucks…

link to the proposal itself:
http://info.sen.ca.gov/pub/bill/sen/sb_0051-0100/sb_96_bill_20050114_introduced.html

I have recently seen the following movies, and these are my thoughts:

The Aviator:
This is a good movie about a man who i never knew about, Howard Hughes. His life has to have been one of the most interesting lives i’ve ever seen. I enjoy the socially disfunctional individualized life. I enjoy the idea that there are people who do not enjoy social interaction. I am this way, so it is like a brotherhood of individuals. This doesn’t mean we are social misfits, in fact sometimes we can be real witty in social situations. It means we don’t enjoy it. The movie portrays his psychological profile in a very artistic fashion. In summary the movie was abbrassive. The main character’s psychological impairment is protrayed through film effects. There are these parts where he will be standing in front of people taking pictures and the camera will focus psychotically on the bright flashes of light and the glass from the bulbs under foot. This is all to shake you into a state of discomfort.

Then there is the scene. This scene or set of scenes had to have been one of the most abbrasive scenes i’ve seen in a while. You see him wreck a plane into a beverly hills home. The sheer agony demonstrated in that tortuous scene was disturbing. I remember feeling my body go through specific changes over time. I felt myself begin sweating and i felt as though i were going to vomit. A running theme throughout the film is his ability to spell Quarantine as a method of calming himself down when he begins an episode. Q-U-A-R-A-N-T-I-N-E. I did this much to the amusement of the man next to me. He saw how disturbed i was with the scene. He snickered and whispered if i was ok. I nodded briefly and averted my eyes from the screen. Then came the aftermath. I felt this intense rush of cool air all over my body. It felt good. Wish i knew the phsyiological definitions of what my body went through, but i don’t.

Overall the movie is a good movie, if for nothing more then to see Leonardo actually act and to learn some interesting facts about Howard Hugh’s life.

The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou (Bad)
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Kinsey (Good)
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Hotel Rowanda (Good)
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I post..

Yes i’ve taken to an erratic schedule of posting. Why? Because I’ve been absorbed into another world, one where fantasy runs amuck and i’m it’s unwitting pawn. No honestly i got World of Warcraft and have since been playing at least once a day. Its a kewl game, and i’m enjoying the mechanics of it. The most enjoyable thing i pull from the game is that it is not obsessive oriented, so i can play when i want and even if i play for thirty minutes to an hour i still progress in the game. The storyline is also one of the most enjoyable game storylines i’ve ever seen.

I currently play a night elf druid. I can morph into a panther, bear, and a sea lion. I won’t bore you with the strengths and weaknesses of each morph ideology. In fact i think that will be the extent of my discourse about the game. Except that i feel i need to defend my enjoyment of the game.

I look at life like this, as you have seen in my journal i can be harsh to people who live in false sense of security and don’t recognize the failings in our current political and global structure. I hate to say it, but what we face in this day and age is the potential (key phrase is potential, the world could get better through our own actions and the actions of others) global devastation.

Below is a list of things that should keep you awake at night.
– Iraq War
– Global Warming
– Growing polution of all methods of environment
– Continued Racial/Gender discrimination existing in America, Europe, and the World as a whole.
– Growing dominence of Religious moral authority.
– Growing control of corporate interests(should i say growing? maybe waning? perhaps? oh hell it is so big now you really have difficulty judging if it is getting bigger)
– Arbitrary interpretations of truth
– Dogmatic interpretations of truth (hehe funny eh? neither is good)
– Growing nuclear threat (not neccessarily from the development of more nuclear warheads, but the lack of dissassembling the many we have. I’m not sure if we are still creating warheads.)
– Failure in our school systems (honestly, we pay less into education then i think is neccessary for a functioning educational system. Instead we pay political pundits to pass opinions off as fact. We pay a lot for the latter.)
– Lack of social security for the future, we instead get to plan our own retirement system since the politicians claim they can’t do it. (Interesting fact i came across in discussing this with Trey, there is a good argument for privatizing social security. It involves politicians taking responsibility for their lack of accounting skills. See if the politicians said, “Look we had social security working like clockwork, then we needed to buy a {insert whatever you want here perhaps trip to a sunny beach? or a new tank? whatever you consider the most distressing}, so we got together and began thinking that we should not take on so much responsibility and thereby say we should privatize social security. By the way this is not a new problem and it is not an extremely old problem. I (meaning GWBush) was not the first to use the funds, but we knew it was a problem before i used the funds. So don’t blame me for the problems.”)
– American Foreign Policy altering foreign opinions of Americans overall.
– The Rape and Pillage of third world countries for resources.
– Widespread poverty and the growing gap between middle class and upper class. I.e. disproportionate distribution of wealth and opportunity according to population.
– Religious extremist actions.

With so many worldly problems facing you that you feel impotent to fix the situation, i argue that asking for complete cohesion with the harsh work aspects of life is an improbable and often super-erogatory request. We must have entertainment and we must have disconnection. It does not even need to be productive disconnection but it might be. I use video games and movies as my disconnection. Which brings me to my next post… which i will get to.

i’m done… please feel free to add more to this list. I’m sure you have your own waking nightmares to contend with.

Below are two articles given to me by Michael.

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December 23rd, Kitty cloned…. The first sale of a cloned kitty occured not to long ago…. 50,000 dollars… the owner says it is identical… published in the New York Times… i think on 12-23-04

http://www.nytimes.com/2004/12/23/national/23cat.html?ex=1104812179&ei=1&en=9f201b61aead7ca5

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A surprise-hit film has renewed interest in applying quantum mechanics to consciousness, spirituality and human potential

http://www.sciam.com/article.cfm?SID=mail&articleID=0006F4CB-F090-11BE-AD0683414B7F0000&chanID=sa006
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more hot debate on that wonderful film released not to long ago called “what the bleep do we know”….
Continue reading “minor discourse”

a bad day has coalesced into a bad couple of days and is ongoing to create what seems like a bad blur of occurences…

when will it end? I don’t know…

i’m tired yet cannot sleep… the plane ride was not the best… was not the worst… i visited with mom and dad last night and it got me thinking about a lot of things…

i’ve gotten comfortable again… i knew this would happen… but hey there is a silver lining… i could be insane….. i could be insane…. i could be insane…
Continue reading “i could be insane…. i could be insane…”

the day before yesterday i went into new york and watched the life aquatic with steve zissou… bad movie… boring and dry humour, so dry it slaps you in the face… i hated the acting… i hated the dialogue… i hated everything about it.

yesterday i saw Kinsey. Great movie. great ideas… great concepts. thoroughly enjoyed the film. I read some information before seeing the movie which gave me background to the movie… apparently a large portion of the film is accurate. i enjoyed the film and recommend it to everyone.

I was walking aroud yesterday, and it struck me how strange it feels to be in this city and not be a tourist. I mean i guess i am still a tourist but it is starting to feel like i’m more the just a tourist… it is odd..

Mary and I have been playing Lord of the Rings: The Third Age. Apparently, and this was just learned by me, Boromir was cursed and seduced by Sauromon the white wizard. That is why he attacked poor frodo. It was because he was a plant by Sauroman.

Anyone else bothered about this little modification?

I hate it because it makes the ring out to be a lot weaker the originally made out to be. Now it can’t even turn a decent individual to the darkside without help. I liked the idea that The ring had enough power to turn boromir against his best wishes. It made Aragorn look that much stronger and morally sound. Now it just happens to be the case that Aragorn was hidden from the white wizard while Boromir was not.

pathetic.

p.s. mary and i are on good grounds… i think…

–If you see a word where the letter “n” has vanished, use your imagination… Mary’s laptop apparently is becoming Nless.–

To begin i’m in New Jersey… We arrived tuesday night and worked our way by public transportation from Laguardia to New Jersey. Took two hours and a perilous discussion in a subway station inside harlem. We rode a bus that was packed from the airport to a harlem subway station. It was inside the bus that i was forced to life several bags above my waist with one arm. This resulted in me straining the sorepart of my back tremendously. I hurt my back at work not to long ago. Well this made me hurt it even more. But i grimaced the pain away and bore with it throughout the rest of the trip home

I joke… the discussion was quite harmless. Just a man asking for directions. I did not know. Mary did not know. We just sat there like two very white very ignorant people on a subway bench with a middle-aged black man asking for directions. Of course i’m usually too open with people on the street, or so Mary tells me. If someone who is down on their luck asks for help, i usually either help or appologize with long explanations for why it is that i could not help at this moment. My reasoning? Because i’m white, semi-well-to-do, male, and attending college. these attributes mark me as an individual who by attribute similarities alone bears a sort of responsibility for a majority of the failings of our society.

Logical or not, i can’t change the way the world works right now, but if i can spare a few dollars or a few coins one moment the i will. It might be argued it is to ease my guilt… but that is bullshit. I feel just as guilty afterwards. The only thing it does is allow me to recogize that the problem still exists and needs to be rectified. This is my biggest drive toward politics btw… i want to change the system from within, because lord knows the masses sure as hell are not going to revolt against our system… the masses are too apathetic.

wow big digression… what was i talking about…

We switched from a subway to to the path train. Arrived home around 2:40.

So i woke up wednesday and Mary did some grading and i read watchman.. finished it thursday.

Thursday Mary woke up early from a bad dream. I finished watchman. We played LOTR Third Age together. It was fun.

Friday, New Years Eve. We went to a wilco concert. It was awesome. The first band that played had this screetching harpy for a lead singer. The music was great, but her voice was grating. At least the music was great until it decayed into a noisome bog, which it did regularly. Skiner kinney is the name? or Skater Kinney? Skelter Ketty? no fucking clue.

Then the flaming lips began. It was pretty good. They came out with a crew of people onto the stage. The scree behind them had opening statements like “Welcome, Tonight is going to be a great show and it will change your life… you will leave saying, Fuck yeah” and so on… the only thing i can really say about the flaming lips is that their stage show is wild. It had people inn animal costumes and women in just a cape and thong. Yes …. you could see the breasts jigglig from even the back of the auditorium. Madison Square gardens is huge, but still seems to have good seats no matter where you sit. Anyway i didn’t think their music was great, but it was’t bad either. Would like to listen to it outside of their live performance.

Wilco was awesome. They opened with their feedback song off of their newest album… iteresting if you ask me… It consists of simply feedback… The band played their music with minor commetary from the lead singer. The concert explained a lot of things about their new album. I think it is simply the creation of a man who is capturing his childhood. The concert had that feel… the lead singer was in P.J.s for christsakes.. There were images of different childish things all over…

Mary and I have reached the poit where i get on her nerves and vice versa. We argue about stupid shit all the time. In fact we were arguing in the concert every so often. When she told me that she wanted to kiss when the ball dropped i said, “we should just argue, because isn’t that more accurate?” Apparently it was only a funny statement in my head. She scowled horribly at me. I felt bad. Wilco anouced the dropping of the ball. On the screen replacing the images of children were images of the ball in timesquare. 11:59:23 was under the image. I looked at Mary. We kissed. It was a nice kiss. Then the night deteriorated. She drew detatched and we faught more.

I abanondoned any ideas of going anywhere afterwards, because i did not want to have the polite arguments anymore. You know, those arguments where you talk with pointed phrases. No real yelling, but sarcasim flyig amuck? Yeah those. It was a roller coaster all night. She would be very much in love and we would be hugging and kissing and then she would tell me my idea is absurd and we would degrade into rhetorical stances. The arguments were absurd. Can mathematical phrases become cliched? Is it wrong to apply sir to someone who is obviously older then me in a concert as respect? There were more but why bring up the past eh?

We went home after the concert and talked about it. It is not solved. It will happen again. We are both hard headed. I go out of my way to apply certain social curtasies to every connversation and get really wound up when others are careless about feelings. This makes me overanalyse the situation and work myself-internally- into a frenzy. Then for some stupid argument i’ll mis-direct the frustratio acquired earlier at some stupid thing. Or even worse and more readily, i’ll just not go out of my way to help that person later bearing a grudge. I really wish people thought about other people’s existence more.

I walk around this city and see people just ignoring the fact that there are people starving before them. We get home flip on our tv and say thats great.

The concert bothered me. They were all angry that bush won the election. Millions are dieing in Iraq because of Bush’s ignorance. I just look around and think of the comic the Watchmen. I think of the horror that one individual believed had to occur in order to change people’s perception. The murder of half of the individuals in New York just so little jimmy’s mom and dad could recogize the suffering of others. I see all these people angry at the loss of a presedency but recognize that they are also mislocating their anger. It could be directed more accurately in fixing the real problems. The fact that half of the U.S. is watching a flawed distortion of the news makes me more worried the bush’s election. Bush is an effect, look at the cause. Bitch and whine about who are sheep and who are sheperds…

That is also a phrase that is getting on my nerves. sheep and sheperds… It annoys the fuck out of me. Right-wing conservatives yelling the left are the sheep of Moore… while quoting O’Reily or whatever.

We are all sheep. And it is slaughter time… we are being slaughtered for our father’s and our grandfather’s sins. I wonder if the greeks ever thought that the world would end because of their mistakes? Did they live i fear of armageddon strictly from a god’s whim? Did they feel responsible for the problems that might arise? Is this not something new?

Could it be that humanity is simply so egotistical that we assume if the world is going to end it will be because of us and not for any other reason? No clue….

There is a tragedy occuring in South Aisia.